Diagnosed with bipolar disorder since 2014, I have experienced numerous depressive states.
Anxiety, stress, anxiety and other “joys” that one encounters in bipolarity led me to write this article following an episode that was particularly difficult for me.
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It's been poorly.
Very bad...
Yes, it hurts when theEgo is affected.
Often, the fashion aggressive activates instinctively.
No question of showing that vulnerability.
It is up to our survival.
A big lump in the stomach.
One higher heart rate than usual.
A feeling ofoppression and the impression that this state will last forever.
THEanguish.
THEEgo Rarely let go of the business easily.
He wants to be right, it's in his deep nature.
No negotiation possible.
Rather die.
But then, how would it be possible to dialogue with him ?
Not to negotiate but for him Bring what he is looking for while taking advantage of it ourselves.
What could To change the situation and to make us evolve both at the same time?
It is an open letter written at a time in my life during which my ego and I are in the middle of a dialogue.
May it be useful to you in your personal reflections.
We often talk aboutembrace what the ego sends back to us.
But what if it's not true?
What if it doesn't really work?
What could then make us evolve in the right direction ?
Let's think about it together.
Here we are in a unenviable condition.
THEanguish is constant, the things to hold on to seem to have disappeared.
Nothing tells you then that Everything will be fine in a short time.
However, you have experienced it so many times...
And often, if not every time, it worked out.
So why do we fall back into this abyss dark and terrifying?
And what to do for Get out of it ?
I would use my example today because I am in exactly this condition right now.
Not well.
Lost.
Anguished.
As if nothing had left senses.
Depression bipolar?
I don't think so.
THEenergy is there.
Just a big feeling ofoppression.
La solution is there too.
Maybe we think it's well hidden but that's not the case.
Personally I know that.
I can feel it.
But it's hard, very hard.
Because that means to Let go.
Let go of what?
I don't fucking know.***I don't know anything.
But I feel it too.
In this situation, the mental Ours is from none rescue.
On the contrary, he Put some beats in our wheelsS.
It is he who Complicates the exercise.
He who makes the lastagony.
THEWelcome is the solution.
Damn it's easy to write.
Doing it... what am I saying... living it is a whole different story.
We can have tendency to take refuge in alcohol, drugs, sex, gaming, food...
But in the end, it's only Delaying the inevitable.
And even sometimes, the lLesson will be harder to digest.
I know that all too well.
What if we hang out together for a while?
Yes there you go, get well snugly in the location of your choice.
And Let's breathe
Just, let's breathe...
Together.
There you go.
At the same time, let's take the time to Look at what's around us without judgment, without reflection, without interpretation.
And let's continue to breathe ... together.
Doing it with you already makes me feel good.
I hope it is the same for you.
What if that was the welcome?
Juste To be.
Descartes said”I think therefore I am”.
But if we discard, even for a moment, the “I think” to keep only the”I am” and, for what is around us, the “what is.”
Let go a big sigh.
It relaxes.
S'stretch.
It's crazy.
Some people may think it's”Bullshit” (crap in French).
But think about it for two seconds.
What is the common point between us human beings, between all sports practices and the difference between life and death?
La respiration.
Take for example the practice of sports, which requires a great deal of finesse, a big concentration and therefore a big Self-control.
Breathing is essential in these activities.
Let's think back to Robin Hood (if you haven't seen it, there's still time for you to watch a cult movie!).
In this movie, if I remember correctly, Robin from Loxley teaches Marianne (whom he is courting) how to do archery.
And what does he teach him from the start?
A breathe.
Blow before shooting.
And if we focus on the other activities, the same is true.
Inhale through the nose, exhale through the mouth.
Rather Basic Isn't that right?
Yet terribly efficient ...
For example, I've noticed that when I'm running (my favorite sport), I perform better when I breathe in through my nose and out through my mouth than when I always breathe in and out through my mouth.
Coincidence?
I don't think so.
It is not for nothing that marathon runners do this.
Are we not recommending focus on breathing during meditation ?
Anyway, I think you got it.
Learning to breathe is essential for bipolar people (as for everyone else).
And to go further, always in order to welcome your ego, it seems interesting to me to Combine breathing with an activity you like to do.
For example, right now I am writing these lines.
Out of thewriting is a bit of my thing.
I like to do that (in fact you can send us a message to tell us what you like to do!).
And that changes everything.
There are always mistakes who are on the lookout, ready to pounce at the slightest opportunity.
This is about Let go.
Certainly to let go of something whose origins or intentions we don't even know, but the Let go all the same.
So let go.
And even better, don't wait no results of everything we've just done.
Just, Experience it.
Man will always try to complicate everything, don't forget it.
La simplicity is sometimes the best thing you can call on.
Although I just told you that there is no point in trying to go faster, there is still something you can do that could speed up the process.
Without you even realizing it.
And that is, as a bipolar person, simply Talk to loved ones.
And if you think you don't have any, writing can also do you a lot of good.
And when I say write, it's Write down how you really feel.
Write down your anger, hate, and everything you feel, to Whine if necessary.
Believe me, that relieves.
At the same time, Talk about how you feel To his loved ones is liberator.
I made itexperiment a lot of times and now again.
So Test.
Get out of theIsolation.
Often, they will bring you a Benevolent listening and will allow you to Take a step back about your situation.
Go for it, Go for it.
Without filters.
Today we saw what could you help To you Get out of the oppressive anxiety that we can sometimes live.
La respiration, of activities you like as well as the supports loved ones are among the top solutions you can use (in addition, of course, to your aftercare ).
It is very important to Get out of your isolation as quickly as possible in order toStop the mechanism that was put in place.
I know how complicated all of this can be to set up.
However, try, at your own pace, at your scale, with YOUR possibilities.
La fellowship From Hopestage is also there if you need.
In addition to being present on Facebook (“talking group for bipolar”), HopeStage offers free training courses adapted to your situation.With all my upholds.
Julien
